Acceptance

Finally, the night of the party of the year was here. It was the party everyone was talking about, and they expected me to make it memorable as they all knew I was a complete party animal.

After all no-one loved a party more than me. Game for a laugh they all called me. I was the one that dared to sing and dance and had also been know to strip if I was dared or under the influence of alcohol.

As I stood in front of my mirror getting ready for what could be the most amazing night of my life. I lacked in confidence and it was all a front but I was totally myself but tonight I felt under immense pressure to please everyone.

I finally appeared at the party, loud music playing as I jumped onto the dance floor while Jo, that was my boyfriend, got me a drink.

The night got off to a flying start as I began to strut my stuff and as the night went on and more and more alcohol passed my lips, I remember vaguely standing on the tables and loosing my clothes as I stood naked. Jo grabbed me and pulled me and began to shout that I had gone too far this time.

I was having fun, or so I thought, and I wasn’t going to let him talk to me like that. I grabbed the birthday boy still naked and put his hands upon my breasts to which he kissed me and took me home and we made love all night long.

I’m not quite sure what happened to Jo but the next morning I awoke with Phil the birthday boy and I didn’t have any regrets.

To this day I never see, or wanted to see Jo again and Phil and I became a couple and he totally accepted me for who I was although I have toned down a bit.

Love At First Sight

All dressed up as I looked over and gave her a smile. Long, black hair cascading past her shoulder and those piercing green eyes, I just knew I had to go over and speak.

I walked over as my heart skipped a beat. I had never felt like this before, it was love at first sight.

As I appeared I attempted to speak but no words would come out so she whispered in my ear which made my heart go all a flutter.

On the dance floor dancing the night away as the night came to an abrupt end I didn’t want to leave I wanted her by my side forever.

We walked outside hand in hand like we had been together for ages. We gazed up into the sky and see the stars as we looked into each others eyes and began to kiss. Our kiss lingered and went on for well over an hour to which when our lips finally parted everyone had disappeared.

I am not quite sure what happened after that but we ended up at mine for coffee but we became extremely passionate and ended up making love all night long. It was the most amazing night of my life.

Things were moving fast as she moved in that morning and we lived with each other for many years until one-day she broke my heart.

I couldn’t even see it coming. We were together all the time and lived for each other. We even worked together until one night I found her sneaking out the bedroom window and I decided to get dressed and follow her.

I eventually caught up with her as I see her knocking on this door, as I hid around the corner I stood waiting as a rather tall guy appeared and in she went.

I couldn’t believe it she was cheating on me. I waited and waited and after several hours out she came as I jumped out, I could see her shaking, worrying what I would do.

I calmly asked her what was going on giving her the chance to tell me the truth, but she lied to me and tried to make out that her friend was having problems with him and she was a mediator.

She was taking me for a fool and I lost my temper she had never seen this side of me as I pushed and slapped her as she fell to the floor.

She began to cry and I began to feel guilty at what I had done after all I loved her but it was too late it was over and I never have had that feeling so deep in my heart since and I don’t believe I ever will.

The Stranger

Standing looking in the mirror plastering on the makeup and brushing my long blonde hair as it cascades upon my shoulders.
I rush down the stairs as i hear a loud knocking at the door as i answer the door there stands my best mate Kylie.

Kylie comes up to my room as i continue to get ready and finally i put the finishing touches together and thats it i am done so time for a drink now.

I lean over to reach for the vodka and a couple of glasses as Kylie and i start to down a couple of glasses before we go on our big night out.#

Right that's it ready to go i thought to myself as i grabbed my jacket from the cloakroom. I opened the door and Kylie followed me out as we walked to the local pub where everyone from work was meeting us.

Finally Kylie and i arrived and their they all were as we walked in the pub. The music was playing and they all seemed quite drunk already and were dancing. Kylie and i were a little bit merry as we had that vodka but not too bad.

Kylie and i went to the bar and ordered a cocktail to die for. It was the most mouth watering cocktail i had ever tried and after that we were up non stop dancing or swaying as some people would say.

The time had come when the pub was about to shut and they were all talking about moving on and going to a club by this time i was up for anything i was having such a great time i didn't want to go home the night was young so we all decided to go into town so off we went.

As we arrived at the club we all walked in and went straight to the bar as we were pounced on by these rather fit guys. They put their arms around us and offered to buy us all a drink Kylie and i had most definitely pulled. The night really got off to a good start and the guys hung around and we had a dance but i wanted to go now as i had too much to drink and needed some air so i lean't over to tell Shane the fit guy i had been with all night and told the girls and we all left together, as they had enough as well.

Shane offered to walk me home but i didn't want to leave the girls but the girls told me to go for it. So of Shane and i went and Kylie went off with James the guy she met. Shane didn't take me home though he took me on a walk to what i thought was his house but he took me up a dark alley way and grabbed me by my throat and raped me repeatedly i tried to get away and i screamed but no-one was around.

The following day i felt distraught but never told a sole of what happened that night. When the girls asked me what happened with Shane i just told them that i sobered up and i didn't like him that much.

vanish

As the clock struck twelve and mum and dad were snoring away out i sneaked of the bedrooom window as i climbed on the roof and slid down the pole.
My heart was beating not quite knowing if they would wake up. I quickly ran to the park as i arranged to meet the love of my life who mum and dad would not allow me to see.

They didn't think he was good enough for me as he had dropped out of school and was on benefits and took drugs but i loved him more than anything why couldn't they understand that? They didn't understand him like i did he had been through a lot and they wouldn't even give him the chance as soon as i was sixteen we were going to get a flat together.

As i approached the park there he stood in the distance as i moved closer towards him we sat down. Here, i got the vodka i said. Cheers, he replied as he poured it into two plastic cups that i had also bought with me. He then started to roll an enormous spliff as we just sat in the park drinking and getting stoned.


I leaned over to kiss him and we lay down as he jumped on top and made love to me he was the most amazing lover as he ripped off my clothes under the stars. The sex continued for hours and hours when eventually it came to an end i had started to sober up and so had he as we put our clothes back on as it was also nearly daylight.


We got up and started to walk home but as we attempted to walk i felt a sharp pain and as i turned around there stood a evil looking man attempting to run as he had just stabbed me as i fell to the floor. My boyfriend just ran and left me and the next thing i remember is waking up in hospital with mum and dad at my bedside and he was nowhere to be seen.

Chaney Wilkins

The lovely red lippy today thought Chaney as she started to plaster it on. On went the rather revealing skirt as she continued to get ready.

Finally she was done after the original three hours in the bathroom and the straightening of her lovely long black wavy hair cascading down her shoulders.

Mum I’m off now she shouted and gave her mum a hug and kiss and off she went.

Cascading down the street on her way to school she met Kyle. He was her best friends brother. Chaney knew Kyle fancied her like mad but she wanted to give him the run-around. Chaney got out her fags and offered one to him but Kyle didn’t smoke and didn’t want to start. Your such a bore she would say.

Chaney lit up her fag and carried on walking chatting away to Kyle with a fag hanging out the corner of her mouth. Got boring maths first thing said Kyle what about you? Well I’ve got English and then maths so I might bunk off after that fancy meeting me after first lesson said Chaney with a rather big grin on her face I’ve got some vodka. Sounds good said Kyle as he looked at Chaney wanting to kiss her but he was to shy to make a move. I’ll see you then replied Chaney as she smiled her sexy smile

which made Kyle weak at the knees. Off they went to their separate lessons as she pranced in the class thinking she was god’s gift as she sat down in her usual place.

Meanwhile I took Calum to school and gave him a big hug and kiss as he went off good as gold and as always Shane was up at the crack of dawn and up and out before we got out of bed as he had two buses to catch.

Not long after I got home the phone began to ring it was Chaney’s school I couldn’t believe what they were telling me I could feel tears in my eyes.

I quickly hurried up the school to face the head who told me everything and my heart was filled with pain.

The school had noticed at break that Chaney seemed a bit delirious and felt a bit concerned as they walked over to approach her she fled as fast as she could the teachers tried to chase her but she was fast even though she was drunk she must have planned to go somewhere.

I was out of my mind my little girl she could be anywhere. I was shaking, I didn’t know quite what to do, so I turned to the rather stern looking grey haired lady peering over her rather dark glasses and asked if they had phoned the police they had but they didn’t think it was urgent as it was daylight.

No longer than an hour later Chaney returned with the police they had found her at the local park sitting by an empty bottle of vodka.

Chaney hadn’t waited for Kyle she just went out with her best mate Kayleigh who was also drunk.

Kayleigh’s mother was at work and could not be contacted as she travelled all over the place and was most probably driving.

My eyes filled with tears as I looked at the state of Chaney as she could barely stand falling all over the place and shouting and screaming at me like I didn’t even know who she was.

Why, I stumbled to say as tears were streaming down my face? But Chaney was not in a fit state to answer as she rushed to the loo to be sick.

I could barely look at her and felt rather ashamed and embarrassed of the state she had got into.

I grabbed her hand and took her home and assured the teachers that this would not happen again.

The following day she went back to school but before she went I checked her bags to make sure she hadn’t taken any alcohol and she hadn’t so I felt relieved.

Approaching lunchtime I received a phone-call from the school to say she had disappeared from school again.

I couldn’t quite understand it she hadn’t any alcohol but un knowing to me she had got her friend to bring some in.

　

I could hardly believe my ears. Why was she doing this to me and herself? I sat, stood and paced up and down not quite not knowing what to do with myself I decided when I found her that their were going to be some changes as I could not do this everyday.

After several hours of waiting and worrying the police turned up with her but this time I decided enough was enough take her I told the police,, trying not to show emotion, put her in voluntary care I told them. No, screamed Chaney please mum, I beg you I won’t do this again. I’m sorry Chaney but I have to it won’t be forever I assured her still trying not to cry.

It was breaking my heart as I see the tears rolling down her face but I knew it was the only way, so the police got me to sign some paperwork and off she went and I never see her again for six months and she was a completely different person.



　

　

The monster i fell in love with

I couldn’t believe my luck when I found the perfect guy. The kind of guy that was extremely popular with my friends and family as he would do anything for anyone, in fact my parents treated him like one of their own children. The only thing they said to me is not to rush things as I was very young.

I had no intention of moving in with him or anything like that at least not at the moment as I had to finish my college course before I could even think about that although I was madly in love with him.

Jake treated me like a queen he bought me little pressies and left me little notes on the kitchen table at my parents when he came over and when he did not see me all week because I was studying for my exam he would write me a love letter and post it to me telling me how much he missed me.

I was so happy when I finally finished my college course I decided to go to university but lucky for me the course I wanted to do was local to where I lived so I only applied for that one as Jake and I were becoming serious and we wanted to go onto the next level in our relationship and move into together. After all we had been together over three years now and Jake had been very patient with me.

So Jake and I started to make plans to move in together when my place for university came through. I was so excited it was like everything was coming together.

Jake was working full time he was a bit older than me so he already had his career and he had enough money to support both of us while I was at university.

Six months later Jake and I moved in together everything was great and I was studying when suddenly out of the blue my period was late.

I couldn’t believe it we had been so careful and I had to continue my studies and how could I with a baby I couldn’t believe this was happening to me.

I knew that day when Jake came home from work I had to tell him but already in my mind I had decided to have an abortion.

That evening Jake returned home early from work looking rather angry and distressed I had never seen him like this before he was always happy go lucky type of guy whatever life threw at him. Jake what’s the matter I said rather sheepishly not quite knowing if my news could wait. Its work he replied I’ve been made redundant he said looking down at the floor. At that moment my jaw dropped it really isn’t the right time to tell him my news what are we going to do. I thought to myself? After a few seconds silence I put my arm around him and tried to reassure him that everything would be fine although I didn’t believe that myself as I was pregnant and I still needed to get to university and the mortgage it didn’t bare thinking about.

I knew I had to tell him about the baby and now wasn’t the right time but it was never going to be the right time so I went ahead and told him anyway.

I was shocked at his reaction I know a baby wasn’t in our plan but he was really angry I had never seen him so angry it was like it was all my fault. I told him I would get an abortion and that was it he picked up a knife and came towards me and I screamed and reminded him that I had a baby inside of me to which he replied well you don’t want it so what does it matter he came closer and I gained strength as I grabbed the knife of him and kicked him where it hurts as I called the police to which they came and arrested him.

I don’t know quite what happened that night but I never wanted to see him like that again it really scared me.

That night I went and stayed at my sisters so he could calm down maybe he just needed some space I thought to myself.

The following day I got up and went to work as usual and I thought maybe Jake would come and take me for lunch as he usually did but he didn’t come I just put it down to him still being in a mood so I just carried on with my day.

Later that evening when I left work I decided to go back to my sisters again as he hadn’t called I felt that maybe he still needed space and by tonight when he got home from work he would call me or come round with a big bunch of flowers but several hours went by and my sister and I had dinner and now it was getting late and still no sign of him I was starting to get worried.

Sarah, my sister could see the worry in my face as she leant over and stroked my face. Don’t worry he just probably wants some space you know what men are like go to bed she said and if you don’t hear in the morning we will go round.

Just as I attempted to walk up the stairs there was a rather loud knock on the door. I ran quickly and opened the door to which were standing the police. I started to panic. Oh my god I gasped What has happened? Look I take it you are Janie Wilson? Yes, I replied looking extremely worried your husband Jake he’s dead I’m afraid. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. How, I replied still in shock? Well the neighbours hadn’t seen him go to work so they reported it and when we went round there no-one answered the door so we forced entry with a warrant and their he was hung from the cupboard.

Oh, my god how could he do this to me we only had a row. He left you a note replied the police officer.

I started to read it and it totally broke my heart he said that he couldn’t carry on without a job and a baby with no money to provide for us. He said that their were no jobs around and he didn’t want me to have an abortion. He said he was sorry for hurting me that day and hope that I could find it in my heart to forgive him.

Sarah was my rock after that she put me up until I had the baby and then she bought me a house for Angel and I.

I came to terms with loosing Jake and if it wasn’t for Sarah I don’t know how I would have got through it but she babysat for me and helped me sort myself out but to this day I am on my own and that is how its going to stay I have Sarah and Angel and that is all that matters.

The monster who beat me

I could feel the fear in my heart as the next glass came flying across the room which hit me at the side of the head and cut my face.

My hands were shaking and tears were streaming down my face as he drew closer towards me and grabbed me by the throat. I began to choke and could barely breathe as I attempted to struggle.

Gareth was too strong the more I tried to struggle the harder he grabbed me so I began to give up until my little girl Amelia came to the rescue.

Mummy, Mummy are you alright did daddy hurt you? I’m sorry Amelia I didn’t mean to hurt mummy did I Maisie he said to me? I just nodded and reassured Amelia that everything was alright as this was the first time she had actually see him hurt me, although it had been going on for months.

Amelia seemed scared for her mummy and she didn’t much like daddy right now which is why I decided it was time to move on.

So when Gareth went to work the next day Amelia and I packed up our bags and we went to stay with my mum.

My mother was very shocked to hear what Gareth had done and immediately insisted that Amelia and I should stay until we found a place after all the house was big enough for all of us.

No-one could believe it Gareth came across as the perfect husband that every woman would wish for.

Several weeks went passed and Gareth would stalk me and wait outside my mum’s waiting for me to take Amelia to school and then he would pounce on me and follow me. I was scared not only for myself but for Amelia and my mum was constantly phoning the police as she was worried for Amelia’s and my safety. After a long talk with my mother that night we decided to go to the council and see if they could put us in a refuge.

The council placed us almost immediately but it was a long way from mum which made Amelia and I very sad but we had to get away from him he was dangerous.

Amelia and I soon settled in but then Gareth started to harass my mother begging her to tell him where we were. He even turned on the waterworks to make my mother feel sorry for him but she didn’t tell him until he came at her with a knife and threatened to slit her throat.

This time it had gone to far but my mother gave him a false address and that day she packed her stuff and went and got her savings out the bank and put herself up in a hotel near Amelia and I.

The following day she came to visit me at the refuge and then she headed off to the estate agent and looked at several flats and put down a deposit. The flat was just down the road from my refuge. Meanwhile, the house was on the market and my mother was near Amelia and I again.

Months went by and I got a house down the road from mum and finally Amelia and I could be happy again and to this day I haven’t seen Gareth since.